Friday, March 19, 2010

Deep Thoughts

Today was starting off as a very stressful morning. I usually like Fridays and have fun watching videos on YouTube. Yes i have been watching more and more of my fave videos on YouTube. At around 1pm-2pm today my BIL took me and my partner to the local library. I got some books on Christianity and Catholicism.

I've been reading a lot of Christian books, mainly non-fiction. Some I got today are about Saints, Catholic Beliefs, and about the Sacraments of the Catholic Faith. a month ago I would have told you religion and going to church was rubbish and I wasn't going to do. As I am listening to Catholicism 101(10DVD set) is all about the catholic faith and talking about the bible and how you can ask God to enter your body, mind and soul and you can be saved.

Right now it's 4:10pm this afternoon and this disc I'm listening to is speaking to me, my heart is softening and I am allowing God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost to enter my body. I am feeling such a light is lifted from my pain and life past. I now want to know more about this God and how he can save me from myself. Yes I am different from my church friends. I am not straight, but am gay male in a female body. To some this maybe strange. But To me it's my life and I believe God made me this way. It will in time make me so strong that I can do anything for God and be his worker, his disciple. He lives in me and will always.

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