Right now I'm thinking about what is frightening me from not transitioning. There are a few factors. One my parent's family, two my church friends and three all my online and other friends. This is difficult to come to terms with. Each time I look into the mirror, I see a face, mainly male. I have facial hair, my hair is short. My voice doesn't sound feminine too much. Most people who I call, call me sir.
Anyhow, my partner is 100% behind me if I change. There is one thing that bothers me. This is losing my partner as a friend and partner in a loving relationship. I've been told we won't be together as a couple as I'm gay. They aren't gay. I am confused and lost in this world.
I believe in God, I'm a devote catholic and friends at church don't listen to me, when I try and tell them I'm not female. It just goes in one ear and out other. Something else is bothering me, does God disown you if you are trans and have a gender change operation? this is something I don't know...
I believe in God, Christ and the Holy Ghost. I believe that we are all created in God's likeness. But what if you inside are male, but body is female. And you change the body to match inside. Does he love you then? Does he want you then?
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